Tag: feminism

Nude Webcamming

OMG, I am FREAKING OUT! I just got approved for nude webcam modelling which means that I can basically start masturbating on cam whenever I am ready. I don’t know if I’m ready. All those girls are so young and hot, and I’m thinking my best angle may be to be to let my pubes and armpit hair grow, or maybe be willing to shit my pants on camera, or perhaps that I’m one of the few older women brave enough, or desperate enough, depending on how you read the situation, to give this a serious go. I’ve never done shit like this… on cam, and the truth is, I wouldn’t do it if there wasn’t some angle to get paid, and these cam-streaming sites say that they pay, lots of girls are getting paid and you aren’t really hearing any stories of them ripping girls off, it’s mostly the customers who do that (there’s always that one jerk), so maybe it’ll be a fun way to make some cash… I really love sex and they say you should do what you love. If this doesn’t work out, I can always get a job at GoodLife Fitness or as a virtual assistant or something. Who knows, right?

If they’ll have me now…

So, I’m pretty stoked about this, but also kinda nervous because I’m brand new at doing stuff like this on cam. I guess I can forget about having a career in politics, LOL, like that was ever going to happen anyways, but if ever randomly decide get into politics for some reason, I’ll volunteer from the start that I masturbated on cam for money, so what? How is anyone better for doing it for free? That’s just stupid, I’m masturbating anyways, if someone wants to pay to watch and I’m young and need the money, then why the fuck not? Seriously.

I guess my biggest worry is that no one will want to pay to watch – ha!

I should seriously just tell the truth about my age on these websites. I literally just got approved, I haven’t even logged back into any of them yet. But I’m already planning to lie and say I’m thirty when the truth is that I’m… just a tad bit older than that. I know that I’m panicking for nothing, this is like, what I do, I have anxiety problems, but it’s probably going to be totally chill and fun. As soon as I finish writing this I’m going to go log on and see what’s up. Maybe it’ll be totally awesome, and I just need to stop freaking out and think positive. If I wasn’t so broke, I probably never would have tried this, and I’m a total exhibitionist sometimes. Like, I started filming myself in the shower back in 2010 because it’s the place where I feel the most beautiful so maybe this is the perfect job for me and I should stop being such a chicken.

I’ve already started filming myself in the shower again, and filming myself masturbating. I guess maybe I have control issues, but I wanted to see what I looked like before I just started putting myself out there… live in a cam room with hundreds of dudes who could be anywhere in the world, including hiding in my closet with a serrated blade and a real hate-on for women…

The funny thing is, I’m kinda hotter than I realized. I just never really took the time to look for myself. No wonder dudes are so aggressive and pushy. Fucking assholes, but still. Seeing myself kinda look so beautiful, I guess I sort of get it, but it’s still not okay. There is this one video I make of me having an orgasm, and it’s not like the other girls do it. I spent a bit watching some of the cams earlier today, and my video that I made is a bit different, mostly because it’s really quiet. Sometimes I have quiet orgasms and I was kinda nervous because it was my first time using toys on camera, which was kind of exciting in and of itself. The whole situation was really enjoyable and the video is beautiful even though I’m not the most expressive in it, I think… I also probably should have taken off my shirt…

I’m smiling at the end, though, hehehe… The NJoy & the Magic play so nicely together…

I think I’m going to make the video available for sale on my website. Some of the other girls sign up for sites like Clips4Sale and stuff like that, ModelCentro, and I might do that also, but this is my personal site, and I may as well sell on here also. I like the idea of having something I own where I can do everything my own way and set my own rules. Holy there is so much to figure out. This is only my third website, and none of the others have been very profitable, although the first one lead to an amazingly sweet guy that I had a nice hot fling with and he supported me financially while we were together which is kind of my thing that I’ve always kind of stumbled into. I’m not very good at getting or keeping jobs, but a man I usually have no trouble with, and I’ve never really had to be profitable before since I was basically a sugar baby having fun on the internet, but my sugar daddy isn’t giving me anymore money, he said, so I have to try and start making money at this, or maybe getting a job at GoodLife Fitness… except that they didn’t call me back and I literally never workout at any gyms (my workout looks pretty explicit and I don’t need any equipment and I hate when people stare at me, or worse, follow me out into the parking lot… *shudders*), also kinda scamming people when you’re selling them stuff, knowing that they aren’t going to show up for the actual workouts… I’d be terrible at keeping a poker face and letting them do it. *Dejected sigh*

I’d rather just get paid to masturbate all day, if that’s even remotely possible. Everything else sounds way too complicated and I just want a simple wet, Sweetpussy life. That’s the name of my imaginary porn production company… SweetPussy Productions… I don’t know if I’m going to do this… I’ve thought it out, but maybe I’m just dreaming… It’s my trademark since I came up with it first, and I’m going to have a logo done by the time I post this. I need a new MacBook, mine is really old, so if any Sugar Daddies out there wanna shoot me $3000.00, you could pretty instantly become my number one, and maybe even help advise me if you know wtf I’m supposed to be doing here. Do it NOW!

The Boss PussyToys…

Me all pent up and sexually frustrated… my dude isn’t doing me right…

Make sure you read this in a sexy spanish accent… like dis…

I have to say, I wish I was using it right now instead of writing this. It was pretty freaking amazing. I also figured out why older guys like younger girls, I mean aside from the obvious. With a younger girl you do not need to be so impressive as you are with a more experienced woman who knows what it’s supposed to feel like, and my new friend is hella impressive and a must have for EVERY WOMAN embarking on her thirties, and honestly, if I could go back and do it again, I’d grab this little secret before even losing my virginity and get a head start on exploring my own sexual independence, oh the things I’d do different, but I digress… Seriously, ladies, you need this toy. Especially if you’re going to maintain the upper hand in your relationships. You know you won’t be calling any shots when you’re all weak and stupid for the dick, and this can be your ally in keeping the sensibility and illusion of independence in your household.

Another satisfied customer…

For me I need to keep away from them younger dudes. I got a taste for them now. Some of them have some good skills and are really easy to be with. So tight and buff, like early twenties. That’s the sweet spot for dudes. So eager and sexy. Mmm, where was I going with this? Oh yes, my new toy. Magic Wand. This toy is it. I had heard good things, but I guess like most women, sex is something I find I’m usually turning down, not seeking out, you know, we need to stop that. Guys wreck sex by being too pushy about it, but we need to learn to ignore them and seek it out ourselves, not the way that they want us to, but the way that we want to, hehehe, I use a Magic Wand ONE TIME, and all of a sudden I’m all sexually liberated, LOL, no, I was like this before, and I’m serious now. Ladies, fuck what your man wants, do you, and learn how to get your own pleasure because until you do, no man can help you with that. I’m just saying. The Magic Wand is a good place to start. So is the NJoy Purewand. I highly recommend both pussytoys because they are both insanely good to the pussy.

Here is another secret, of mine, other ladies can do what they want, but I think it’s a good idea to keep your pussytoys a secret. If a man wants to play with your pussytoys, make him buy you new ones. For me, my pussytoys are very special, I love and protect them, they aren’t just like, nasty old things being tossed around a bachelorette party, my pussytoys have only been with me, and if I share them, then that person is making memories on my pussytoys, which means that no matter what happens between us, be it good or bad, whenever I use my pussytoys, that person will be on my mind. Be very careful who you give that power too, or you may wind up throwing away some very boss pussytoys and compounding hurt and loss, with even more hurt and loss. Say NO!

The Magic Wand is the pussytoy to end all pussytoys. You really just need to hold it gently against the clit, you don’t even need to take off your panties, just relax, watch some porn, use your imagination, think sexy thoughts, enjoy the ride. I seriously kept mine on the lowest setting because I was tryna enjoy it for a minute and not just get it over with, and it worked out really amazing. I think I was watching a threesome on PornHub, and just wow, it kept me going for the perfect amount of time and then finished me off spectacular. It was really intense.

The wetspot don’t lie… hehe, looks like the ghost of every loser-ass dude who couldn’t give it to me right…

I just used it again. I mean, there isn’t much I can say except for wow. My freaking teeth are still chattering!!! I’m going to look for an affiliate link, this is a product I believe in, and so maybe if you buy it through my referral or recommendation, I can have a little nibble here. Honestly, even if no, I’m still going to publish this and review the product because it is super amazing. I may even post some videos of me enjoying my new little friend either to PornHub, or to YouTube, or maybe to both, I’m still working on what kind of videos I wanna make, if any, and what direction I want to go with this website. All I know is, the research phase of my whole porn idea is going smashing so far. I just might be a little bit shy about letting the whole world see my orgasm face and watch me masturbate and stuff, but who knows, maybe I should just get over myself and do it. Who cares, really? This could be the start of something very liberating… or of course I could also crush my self-esteem and collapse in on myself like a dying star, but either way, I’m ready for a change in life…

Please get in touch and let me know if you want to see me nude on webcam. I’m with a few sites so just ask for a link or lemme know if you wanna Skype instead. I’m still getting everything set up, or I can take bitcoin. I have a bitcoin wallet for some reason…